It all lasted until another desire to play hit me. I couldn’t imagine living without a game at all. Many things were changing in my life, but the game was always there. As I see now, I used to manipulate people I loved and I took advantage of it to always get what I wanted. I blamed everyone, I thought that someone else was to blame for my condition, I thought that I did not deserve to be in a bad situation, that I was a good person, and especially blamed family members and the people who stood by me.
Over time, experienced a crash in everything in every area of my life, anything that intersected with the game – be it a relationship, a job, or something, the game was stronger than anything, I gave up everything. I wished I could keep the good things in my life, but the game was closest to me because It gave me emotions that nothing and no one else could give. My first step was to confess at home and say – the game was much stronger than me and it ruled me. The few people left around me, all very tired of my life, though I realized I was very tired myself.
I took responsibility and started looking for a solution, I was looking for it with all my heart and I found it very soon. I met people who actually showed me my problem, showed me that it’s a disease. With the understanding of all this and the help of the people who have made it through their lives, I overcame this problem. The best step in my life was when I admitted all this and asked for help.
